Northern Goodies

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Tha Nort'

Up north is nice. Up up up.

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Mah Druthers

I'd prefer Cleveland.

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GRITS

Ginny's not Southern.



(Girls Raised In The South)

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Illegal

They were keeping me from an attractive course and don't care @ my up-to-date monetary situation. I need to speak to a lawyer, not police.

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Reserved

Some people are so happy they do not care @ the conversation.

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Responding

Ginny doesn't respond to happy younger people.

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Racism

It's when my point isn't taken do I feel racism.

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"Friend"

Lily's friends are meaner than me. She just wants the odd 1 out. She wants to make a meaning for things. She thinks the world is jealous. It's quite inappropriate. She's saying I'm selfish to feel good in a normal way. She's a case like her dad.

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Asian Mixes

So, if you like Asian, then don't call a mix Asian.

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The Most Saucy

Asians felt for our quirks.

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Drinks

So, does soda make you more thirsty, in a way?

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Surity

I am sure an Asian can develop into looking Caucasian. It is just that they hang out with 1 another.

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Mixes

A 1/2 black Asian mix should be the same as 1/2 white on the black side. What @ 1/2 minority?

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Did you know my college honors experience was not harder but made easy to learn more, but .. like make us do work outside of class for this 1 English course. Something else typical was we added a music history prep course 2nd semester which was too easy yet time consuming in library. Up north was too hard. Also, the singing group course was only 1st semester and no credit hours I think. It was replaced the next semester with Italian singing.

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Una Problema

Black people are disrespectful racially.

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You know what I did

I was walking all from @ 6-11.  I got a Coke slushie, a Pepsi, and later a strawberry lemonade slush.  Nothing'd do't.

O MY GOD

Why would you attack me for being succesful in some way I can racially, like ooh I'm not Christina, I MEATTER.

Mucho Problemos

Erm, I blame Johnny Depp for the 1st time I went to the mental hospital .. there's something else that's true I forgot, unfortunately.

They said something @ not going to her class to my mom, but they may forget @ it as time goes by.  I just don't want to have contact with the disciplinarian..  I think the counselor doesn't like him.  All I told them was I was doing the classwork.  She didn't say not to go to the bathroom.  I don't remember going so much after or not.  I mean it was 3 classes in a row on Thursdays.  She has a job like everyone else, I mean.  I was stuck at a mental hospital not even allowed to lay in my room.  There must have been something I could do confined in such horror.  The other patients there were always a danger.  LOL.  Not funny but how I said it.  What else.. forget.. Ah, yes, so they just made it seem like there was some thing they didn't like about me in a theater setting going to the bathroom and something else, like I giggled inappropriately.  I was trying to provide, but it was brushed aside.  Why give a fuck!  So, I'm not as white as Ginny or something?  I think she laughed a lot, and the other kids were just mean, seen 'em look at me, the darker 1s.  I wasn't thinking @ my skin.  So, what?  I don't wanna take that..  They acted like they left something out.  Also, they read a lot of things the 1st time, the disciplinarian.  It was calling her late, just 1 time too late said what you didn't unplug your phone?  Then it was @ e-mailing the kids, possibly even knowing @ the group that no one joined, I did for fun.  It was fun, I made a multiple choice thing.  So, this makes no sense to me.  They didn't say anything about hitting my papers and kicking the kids bothering me's chairs by me.  They didn't seem like it, but the whole class did a lot, no big problem but made me unable to be good, so overwhelming.  I need my freedom.  That's it!  I'm contacting a lawyer someday.  I want to turn in the disciplinarian for being stuck up.

What's the problem with what I said @ Ginny w|my mom?  I didn't mean anything.  Oh wow, you piece of shit, who didn't know that, LOL!  You don't even know who that's to!  Neither do I but it's not Ginny..  I can say what I want and not to anyone, and no it's not to her, unless I don't know it.  You think that you told me not to do that.  I do it when I'm mad, and I make up a collective person model.  Just let me know if that doesn't do it for you.  I know you were nicer to people who curse than me.  What's this basing everything I say on cursing?

What else pops up.  Erm, yes, why would you think it's me that's not white?  I can like whatever I want.  I'm used to "accepting" who I am secretly somehow.  You can't "accept" you I am..  I already know my mistakes, and it was not getting enough sleep which means lower grades for awhile, well here's my lower grades!  Take that!  Oh, wow, I didn't come here to learn to read lots and lots of papers for nothing.  This class is an outlet like Weight Training 1 was.  It was 2 credit hours.  This is the place for adults, too!  They are so cutting at us older kids or younger adults.  No one thinks I'm worth anything, well don't go into that because my accomplishing is worth more than some mucusy 7-year-old, don't mean any person in particular.

What else?  If you work with kids, you can't get tired of giving and then get mad at them for it and wish you were the youngest and never talk @ it.  You think there are things you don't have to do because you're already white.

Look, stop PUTTING MY DAD IN THE PICTURE - He's not in a nice moood to me, and also don't get by me with you think I'm not good like either of my parents and not a good individual and you hate me with all your heart, anyone who promises anything just to live to bite my fl*** when the truth is out in the open.  Why don't you just be finished with it?  Also, it will mean something in my life if people I know move away just because of me.  Why does the teacher have a distaste for me?  Why doesn't she act normal?  It's the god daing Tim Burton lol.  I mean, she's missing out on a lot if that's the look on life.  I know everybody wants a cool teacher, figured she's just really presentable, born @ 1960.  Hm, I don't feel she can just accept things the way they used to be.  I was wondering about if my parents took lessons from her why I would be trashy..  Also, I was in her neighborhood waiting, and it's like they all knew I was coming and are mean now because of her finding out what I said @ my mom.  Ex-cuse me.  I'll never help you when you're ever down in any way.  I know you are getting back at the world in stupid ways because of Tim Burton.  If you want attention, you'd better go find something..  Stop ruining the fact that kids are always to be encouraged by what you know.  I'll just say it, my mom is mean but healthier but not socially-  Hello, did you forget I'm here?  What's all this Tim Burton nonsense.  Just leave him alone.  Where's the world!

So

What if I said you weren't as good to me?  I was convinced to toss that idea around but figured someone would do something stupid.  It's just an idea, too.  What else..  Erm.  I am a presentable person.  What's this thing going @ where you wonder what I know, like I care.  I mean, I'll just talk @ it.  There's nothing else to do in all our worlds, now.  We're on the slave ship.  Oh, rats, what else!

Do you know how undignifying that is "the world with Tim Burton?"  I know who done what!  I grew up talented in everything but got kicked outta so many things since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  People always said I could (simply) do anything I set my mind to.  I guess I just didn't know what to do next.

Something Figured Long Ago

I knew ya'll weren't better to me than Tim.

Mo' (More)

Did you know Tim needs to get it out, like "what" his daughter is, in sin?  Now, that's sin.  She's so nice, but to me I labeled anyone who defied me a brat who wants to "exchange" what I have so they have it.

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So, what do you think of bringing up the race is all of an extremely talented individual who grew up both sheltered at home and unsheltered and successful in the world, like people at school watching and knowing me, as well as other places kids go, theater, .. hoping for music performances in singing and hopefully some talented pianists, under their belt.

Una Problema

My biggest point on my walk was thinking to myself how annoying Tim Burton was.  I just wanna talk @ it, not tweet it TO him.  Lots of people don't care until someone brings him up.

Oh, did you get just this.. it's really too late to do "what" he promised to do with his fame.  Mainly he's a scardy nut thinking he saved me racially, but no..I don't need your Jew spouse and new cute baby daughter to do that.  I thought he was just Tim, an adult like anyone else, not Tim the Tiny Tim of family Christmas lol..

Too bad no one is online posting to me, don't know who'd read this crap, but I mean if you didn't know now you do.  The world needs to know.

Help!

I might get a lawyer counselor, so tell me @ that.

My dad keeps peeping in my life and won't let me in his.  THANKS A LOT TIM BURTON YOU *BEEP*  Thanks for turning on the world.  What, I know Johnny isn't perfect, as well.

Not Too Hard to Find a Friend, in Life-

You don't tell someone 30 years older that they're a peer.

What else.. ah, yes, I do not care what you think Miss Ginny messed up in, for I don't see anyone else.

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You know the hard hit of Florida is based on a time of confusion and hunger.

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You can be in pain in an easy way. Notice you lose a leg it doesn't come back. The pain is unnecessary.



Johnny Depp got in a fight in public over his cute family, on purpose, and cut himself as a kid and to this day has many tattoos. Another note is that though he shoves aside his kids to others has tattood his daughter on his heart. This does not make sense either way. I used to not get into this stuff.



Guess you should start a blog, ASAP. Just do something on a blog and go to other sites. Also, use Blogger.



Also, why do you get mad at me when I was made mad? I can relay anything to someone if they are really close. I can even tell if it's going to happen. Actually, my public blog is used to relay everything. I do curl away alone when I know I've been stupid or silly. People think Johnny Depp looks drunk when he really is..

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Funny

Funny how unpopular people think they're better.

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Independent

I was very independent from my dad as I approached graduation from high school and lived in a university dorm.

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mad

My dad got grossly close after the n word thing with Tim Burton, thinks he can sense a change.

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wut

My dad seems to get mad, easily.



What do you think of families where kids get unnecessarily close and sorta end up over-exposed?

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Problems

Stop acting like I did something wrong.  What, confiding in my aunt and not worrying @ her sanity?

Mad

Everyone keeps looking @ me and doing things to me socially like they understand, but not a flicker of movement on their face..  You don't understand nothin'!  You never took an interest to the real me.  What do you think I am, now, a psychopath?

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Problema

You can't tell me I'm not as good as a famous person cus I didn't like you annoying me, spoiled brat. Well, have fun w/o me.

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Prejudice

A Frenach or mixed American man saw my hair and eyes were lighter and decided everyone else should be light-haired to me.

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Problema

Why would my mom think it's cute I lost my watch so other people feel better about themselves, while with me people are always mean and say any little pleasure is wrong?

Abnormality

Why ya'll being mean that maybe I shouldn't be able to think something @ myself?  That's not normal.

Also, I'm still being flooded with endless insults, like my page jumped at me when I was upset.. maybe just what pages did.

Morning

I just noticed my brother and dad were awake so went to see.  I wanted to put down my dream, but it's hard to remember, now.  I just e-mailed my mom @ too much medicine this time, for somer reason I remember I said I liked the higher dosage, but now I'm tired.

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Brother being mean.  I woke up to use the bathroom and when I came out he was using the sink and then hit a pan 2 times, herad the metallic feeling.  It makes me not know if I'm tired or not.

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I keep having it..

Didn't I already say~

I'm sorry?  Not even sure if it mattered to you.  Dunno, don't matter to me.

WAH! D;

Wah did I go outta control w|my mom?  I should not care, but I wanna be in my room at peace.  Was getting stuff.  My dad had just come out again.

Maybe, I just don't wanna be gay, too.  That was rather startling.

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Zonk

I need to really lie down.  :)

My "Conclusion"-

So, I find like random offenses against me.. like Ellen's daily posts, like a small thing dropped into a background as an insult - forget what else I was gonna say.  I had some idea @ her, something @ like ooh you don't watch TV.  I do sometimes but like it seems like once in a blue moon, I sleep.  I sit @ the computer.

Also, my stomach is so bloating.  It's from sitting @ at the mental hospital.  I wonder if I will ever be better..everyone seems to be in the same situation.  No exercise or no sleep.

I don't mean anything against Ellen, just wanted to figure out something I was thinking.  I feel she's also dropping in saying, "Don't do it."  I get the feeling she's waiting for her daughter to be born.  She should have *** with a ***y guy from New Orleans..I know they had some.

I'm glad she's preparing for having 1 baby, a girl.  She's gay, too.  I dunno she likes boys.  What if it's the way we've gotten other signals.  At this rate, I can't have my 2 kids, but she can have 1.

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Problemas

I didn't even want my dad around me.  He thinks I'm in jail.  Isn't that sorta "out?"

Problema

STOP MAKING ME MAD AND PICKING AT THE WORDS I USE

I heard a beep and found my dad didn't text back.  He did that to mean something stupid.  He's very unappealing as a mad guy.  Not sure why his sisters are so fast-paced.

Una Problema

What, Ginny, think you're popular?  You're just like every single other person in the world than me.  I can get mad if I want bc you're always in a sorry mood.  What's this?  Messages at home that are insulting and stupid and redundant?  I TALK BACK

Ooh, go hide in a corner and "say it ain't so."

No one is nice to me.  How can I be nice to them?  I am, but they all dig into me.  I let myself out.  They don't.

I DON'T CARE LEAVE ME ALONE

Problema

How'm'I gonna practice voice, today, with everyone attacking me.  Who cares @ my brother?  I DON'T.  Ooh, Ellen, did I type that?  Is that the point of your Tweet for today?  I don't care if I wasn't little in the place you're from.  I lived there a long time and know more @ it than you might.  I know everyone there repeats things.

Hmph

You think nothing you do matters to me.  I don't wanna hear anything about my reaction because you didn't listen.  You knew I just typed up a big thing @ this!

Problema

My mom won't stop, and she just meandered away.  She also wants me to resend a schedule, like week-to-week or something.

GINNY I DON'T GIVE A CARE WHAT YOU THINK @ ANYTHING I DID WHEN YOU WEREN'T @ LEAVE ME ALONE, STOP MATTERING .. why am I getting these defences from you by others, my mom, my brother?  Why do you give a care?

I really won't take this.  I said something back, and you didn't listen!  So I don't care!

And

I almost prefer my dad in some sense not be considered anything in my life really like always thinking if I got some public acclaim he'd be 1 person to ruin my situation.  He's acting rather mushy..

So

I notice people keep coming to terms with me, making me feel very bad things, lots of effort to ward off, silent effort..  What I know is my dad's oldest sister who is younger seems to wonder why don't I get hurt for enjoying her.  She acts like I am a bad person and do things I shouldn't, like looks at things from a prism.  No, I'm sorry, I will not do this for her.. duh, who would?  It keeps happening.  Why does this happen and not something else?  No one else does this like this for no reason.

So, last night, my brother made me feel like my eyes were like a little bandana around my head, and my mom did that from around the back of my butt, both with 2 points on the ends, like a plastic gauze or something.  That's rather sickening.  Can anyone help them?

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Race:
White|Chinese migrated to non-Asian-Oriental culture
Caucasian Side Ethnicities Calculation:
Germanic, Viking|Irish, ?NA? (German, French, Dutch, English + Swiss..) PA Dutch|Amish
American Heritage:
Pennsylvanian all 4 corners + at least 1 line of some type of New Yo'ker

Desired Work:
Tinkerbell in Disney Main Street Electrical Parade, if too tall by an inch then Alice in that parade
Activities:
Singing Lessons, starting my 1st Jazz Classes maybe 2 times a week @ 2 different places
Past Activities:
Ballet 11 years, Singing seriously myself 21 years, Choir 9 years, best|Baton Twirler 2 years..
Special Skills:
Piano|Accompaniment, basic Gymnastics abilities, Ballet muscle memory, experience in Art and proclaimed artist by others, certain Athletic things, a good handle on the voice for speaking and Eastern and Southern regionalism..

What I Should Do

Take off my contacts and go to sleep.  3)

Food

Pasta cooling  3)

Won't Stop

My brother, trying to be triumphant, very annoying, no relation.  I don't like to look as he does, thinking it's funny to be like sorta starch, non-Caucasian skin and long, greasy hair.  Still has pimples.  Doesn't express anything to me that seems like especially Europeany helpful, keeps playing around, doesn't form his face as he should.  That's not me, at all, I was able to listen to my mom, then there comes my brother with her and my dad.

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Immoral Family

My dad admits if he's shitty, ordinarily.

My mom is vicious and threatening racially.  She is kind to others, maybe not deep in public.  I heard her with other mental health-related workers and stuff thinking how they got me to say something that they can make it so I get myself in trouble with them like doing things that make me do it and land locked up again for a long time, conveniently put me somewhere else, like they don't really want anything to do with me but to be mean to me and harm my life.

This Way

Think of it this way.  Ellen don't care @ nothin'.  Forget what else.  Yea, she's like a machine shooting out tennis balls that says what I did that was New Orleanian|Slidellian when I lived there means nothing.

Una Problema

I already didn't wanna be like my brother.  I think I have it better than you.  He's ruining my New Orleanian|Slidellian heritage.  I mean, he like staked his life on having every place we move over me unless we had moved back.  I already thought he shat and didn't think anything through.  What do I do that's mean?  I have niggers niggering me, literally, sometimes I am mad but rightfully so, trying to avoid niggers.

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Utterly MAAAD

I was too tired to see Monsters University yesterday.

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Hometown:
SE FL + NO
Career Path:
Performing + Directing
Personality:
Romantic + Action Seeker
Ethnicities: NW Chinese, German, Irish|Viking, French, Dutch, English, {indian?}
Race:
White|European

School Goals:
AA Music @ VCC
BM Singing @ Rollins
Masters in Music Education

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I mean it.

I want my life back, not everyone talking in code to me that I like who's famous @ my dad!!!!  My dad is like m******** me via this experiment, it feels.  I will not take it!  I was into Tim Burton, and he already wasn't supposed to touch me unless he was feeling uncrazy again.

Problema

Bella Thorne wouln stop acting mean like to me it seems.  Suggesting things, like @ my birth I think now.

Annoying

Lily Rose is a dork, what else was I gonna say .. keeps hinting in insults at me.  She thinks she's better than me and can ruin my relationships.

Problema

I don't care how "bad" a person is.. but I did not see you invade their privacy.

Always Accepted

So, you younger parents who aren't too young always make your kids feel accepted in the world.

I notice

I notice you wouldn't ask weird things to a young teenager.

Problema

It's true, my dad like gargle coughed twice as I went to and from the bathroom.  It was rather, er, pathetic.  It was about me being worthless thinking I'd accidentally k*** myself.  He has to "cover" things because he's not being as nice as before ever it seems, like there's nothing else there, no more of the good life, thanks to ya'll, don't take it out through my parents.  Yes, I'm very mad and wouldn't mind if I could think of something else mean to say.

My Calculation

Wow, Ellen doesn't like young people.  She is suggestive to us wanting attention.  I want to think I'm right, and I felt threatened @ it by my dad, too.  I mean, I questioned my dad not being as nice because of not doing well in school and the n word thing.  People are all mean to me.  I was told to leave college 3 times, not told directly but to "get some rest."  They did actually mention that in with their shit on why.  I even had good grades, I think.  This teacher Ginny, *beep*, probably mad I didn't know @ repeating the hw when she sent me to the counselor during her 1st class, Voice for the Actor.  She's a speech therapist .. works @ Disney.  Anyway..  So, Ellen is using the n word thing as an excuse to not be nice to me.  I just got a hint @ that, that I think the world is wheezy @ "finding out."  It sounds like a fad.  If you're not cool, you can't do what only cool people do, they think, like be bad and call people stuff.  If you do, then they somehow find some intelligent way of h*r*ing you.

Problema

Why act like I have a mental illness and lost all my dignity just because I had a hard Gifted History course which was also AP .. and got called in for being more like withdrawn.

Then, people actually bit at me for poorer grades, at a public high school .. switched to a Catholic 1.

Don't you get that feeling with Ellen DeGeneres?  Maybe, even Tim Burton like that, a man?

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So, what's so funny @ me deciding it was a mistake to give a shit @ my dad?  I did give a shit.  It's his fault my world became unexciting and my mom's for getting me in the hospital by insisting an attitude on me, something to do with my dad being older.  What happened was the n word thing.  1st, Johnny Depp acted like I should call him stupid "to get it out."  Then, he was like a plague after me.

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I'm not saying you should trash your wedding dress just because it's a fad, but if you do, I wanna see a photo! http://ellen.tv/1aAVhdg

She just doesn't really like people.

Problema

So, Ellen made a suggestive post, "trashing your wedding dress."  I get a funny feeling she gives a shit @ what my dad thinks.  I will not accept his bullcrap about suddenly ruining our relationship in fear of others because of the n word thing, which was stpid.

Why can't anyone just respect me like before Tim Burton and the n word thing?  Who cares @ him?  I tried hard to be a good fan, and he's just racist and emits only little bits of knowledge at a time, like he's hard to reach or something.. isn't doing the same kinds of projects as before, from what I remember a long time ago.  I am a long-time active online fan.

Bad Dream

My brother's dog was a Chinese dragon and we were like in and under him and it was a girl and it was gonna have a baby.

That looks like the dog on my background.  My dad even said, "We're not getting a cat," and no reason, when I said used to think of wanting 1.

Also, I wanted to wash some things to wear, and I see my dad's stuff is already filled and my mom doesn't do laundry until tomorrow.

Problema

My dad doesn't feel safe just being nice to me.  If you want him to be mean to me, then *beep*  I've had it with his thing with the n word thing and outright am on attack in my mind for anything that happens.

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Are you gay?

Depending on what my mom's age is or isn't you think oh well that means she's not as good.

Ex er cise

I did a legs and upper arm workout - Jillian Michaels - No More Trouble Zones

So

What if my mom isn't white?

So

You had a problem with me being cool and authentic.  Are your children authentic?  Well, yes..

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Show-Off

Why show off your mental illness from the trashiness of the life of your own?

Problema

GINNY

Please.  Do not **** the teens outta school.  Maybe anyone would care to make my life such a mystery as theirs????

OK

Ginny.  Who'd want to take your Goddamned classes?

Impossible

I see teens walzing down the mall on Saturday with big smiles looking up ahead like they did anything in life, think others did it all for them..

Messin' @

Why is Ginny messin' @ with Lily Rose, suggesting she's better than us?  Sure, she's more famous and more pretty, maybe to some more nice

Just Wondering

I have no idea why you think people won't make up some reason to put you down.

What happened?

What happened to the respect - TIM BURTON.  Everything, bad Tim Burton.  I'm better than those mean fans.

That's so dorky.

I'm tired of putting up with this high society disposition.  I liked Ginny for who she was.  Lily Rose wants to say she's worth more than me, just "came up."  That's so dorky.

Question

What's Ellen got against me?

St0p!

Ellen stop crapping at me, unless that's Ginny or something.  Why can't you ever leave me the fuck alone?

St0p!

Ellen, can you shut the fuck up saying I grew up in a crappy culture?

Problem

Something stupid is happening.  Ellen I will not do anything you say.  I load Twitter and I go to select down and it like washes over and makes you look at these other names.  Let's just make Ellen always sit in a hard chair.  Who did this, tho, Ginny too?

Problema

Don't feel as excited physically anymore.

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Too Depressed

to practice but guess I will .. need a jog..? floor workouts

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Did you know?

Did you know Ellen acts like she meant something bad?  Ellen, never be mean to me?

Una Problema

You know what Ellen or someone with her really did?  They wanted to make sure I never thought of the word die, nigger, etc.  Like it couldn't be pushed into me and pop up.  HOW STUPID CAN A PERSON BE.  YOU DON'T EVEN CARE.

Experiment

I don't like being insulted at any given moment.  In real life, I find ways to ward it off more and more.  Some people are just scared.

Hmph!

I put the dressing away but feel too sad and mad.

My clothes are drying.  Also, my dad wanted me to ask my brother something.

Mad Mad Mad

It's all Tim Burton's fault .. It's Tim Burton's fault .. It's Tim Burton .. Tim Burton!

Also, I now question my dad's idiocy living in the house hearing him for months not caring about me, too.

SEE THEY ALL LIKE NELL BURTON and my cousin and I don't.

Bad News

I feel I've eaten nothing and perhaps a bit gross..I used store bought Caesar dressing and there was also no sauce on this huge wrap, not the snack wrap, Ranch.  Too dangerous to call the police.  Lawyers I realized could have a problem with me, but I might need 1 for school.

Una Problema

STOP PICKING ON ME AND SENDING ME TO MY DAD IN TROUBLE

Ginny, you aren't as nice as you would've been.  I didn't call you shit online, this time.

I don't give a fuck.  It's my blog, and I didn't start anything.

Tim Burton.

I can say whatever I want as long as there is no threat.  I don't like cursing AT people, though, and think the word fuck is especially funny.  Make me mad and I might do something, like say a word you clam to not adore.

Why does it sound like everyone knows about my order now?  It's just my dad.  You mean you did it on purpose?  What's that supposed to mean?  I'm not doing shit.  I'm not feeling sorry for anything I do.  I just say sorry to you.  You -were- mean, and I try to avoid it, but cursing is funny and didn't mean anything, just felt different for a bit then regretted giving anyone the pleasure.

Feeling Bad

Orlando always plays around, and that's why, tho I like the location spot, I think Orlando people are shit.  Not meaning a long time ago in style.

I got no dressing in my salad and wanted EXTRA and no straw nor plasticware.  Maybe, my dad walked in, not sure.

Yesterday

Need to get the post up saying I had it w/o the wrap, yesterday.

Mickey Dee's

Premium Southwest Salad with Crispy Chicken
McCafé Frozen Strawberry Lemonade
Premium McWrap Chicken & Ranch (Grilled)

Bon Apetite, my food is here and I'm eating now!

Tired

Time to practice voice.. after a shower?  Dunno, may nap later, maybe not, though.

Oh, and I'm starting jazz classes, immediately.  $12 per class.  It's so I can be like Tinkerbell in the front of the Disney parade.  Even if I were Alice I'd need it.  Ballet is very staunch and I do have a lot of training compared to a modern dancer or maybe even someone who's always been to the same school.  Need to do floor workouts, as well.  I was still tired, had some water this morning, need to take pills.  Not sure.  Will probably wait until lunch.  My stomach is smaller and tighter.  There were so many girls and some boys at that audition.

I should probably sing, see if I can do something to my hair, put on a bra, cuz I record it.  I was gonna practice yesterday, but just had a burger with my parents and went to bed.  Of course, the day before I was trying to sleep.  Had some problems, slept early the night before, gone all day.

Analyzation of Self

I was rather grumpy after auditions.  I said nasty things bursting out @ Ellen DeGeneres and Ginny, sorta through with certain thing with Tim but still am a fan and like him as much, like with Ellen and Ginny.  I think Ellen is rather special to me, seems to get along, lived where she lived, most like me at this point in her life as I was not chubby when little and had more dark hair and light skin and not too dark of eyes, though.  Well, I guess with Ginny, I mean, not sure, think she understands.  Saw her post on Facebook when I got mad online, don't remember what I said but may have later taken it back.  This time, I was with my mom, and she was just so stressful seeming possibly.  I'm also mad what Ellen might have thought of my mom, like said she was not as cool as she used to, which I do find rather dumb and of course mean.  Ginny also gave her a book and I found the CD in it.  She seemed fine with it, to me, but maybe it wasn't how everyone wants to be treated.

WAH! ;0

I'm sorry, Ginny, guess I bothered you.

So Mad

Why is my dad acting more approaching to me when I talk to him or see him and talk to him?  He was never in my life, this is uncool, really, I didn't do anything, just wanted to be a good kid, pretty and stuff too, which might be included but I shouldn't have to say.

Una Problema

So, Ginny, ya get mad at all the people who don't give a shit @ your daughter?  Because 1 of them and my mom I think made me joke around @ you, really, like I said on my blog, I don't mean poo when I say shit.  I was kinda making fun but regretted it but in a way don't since you're not supposed to be mean to someone if they are upset..  I said something and then said you were a piece of shit because everyone around me was attacking you telling me in cold blood how you sent me to the counselor, who was bad adn stu

Una Problema

Ya'll get mad and have to say so not wait.

Messed Up

So, Ellen, did you tell all the eye doctors to stop giving their patients sunglasses for when they get the dialition drops?  You don't deserve to be with Tim Burton.

The Japs

Why are the Japanese English and Spanish?



Why are Americans with Jew and in Europe worried a Chinese will have a more European nose?

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Delicacy

Why would you belittle me to worry @ Ellen DeGeneres's delicacy as a female?



So, does she create problems all the time and then pops in happy?

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Smilie

What @ Ellen's corner of a smile..

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Expressions..

Ya'll all racist, all your "argumentative" seeming expression.

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What Young People Think Today

I wonder if younger people today think all good things are Caucasian.

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Una Problema

Don't treat me like shit 99 percent of the time for bloomin' Ellen DeGeneres.

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Point?

What's your point in life? Stop making fun of my parents's ages. I can be what I want.

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Una Problema

Stop speaking for racists.



And shut up!

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It's

It was birth year. I am not full northern American.

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So, why?

What's wrong with Chloe Moretz? She is so digging into showing off like she's better with a Southern mom and probably dad..



She's so conceited, and so's Burt'n. They are both happy @ their "roots.."

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Velly Good..

Ellen has very good Tweets. Thanks.

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So Sorry..

Sorry @ how cruel my true feelings are about nasally flower children, but I didn't get out all the negativity of everyone

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Like OMG

My feet just made an organ position..

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Tweet Pic on old Twitter again

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Twitter

twitter.com/ChristinAnn2013

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Mo'

3 more auditions, gonna take jazz. Don't want to major, dislike modern. Jazz helps for Disney. Ballet, too.

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Not Enough

I want to take jazz. I will try maybe 1 more time.



I heard it's also @ your face.

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wut

I am never accepted for me. What, now I have to take ballet?? For this shit?

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Stupid Disney

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El Stupido

That caster was mean saying he was actually working with anyone, the cuts.

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Rude

Acted like Jewish couldn't do it and a short lady.



I'm seriously mad of people thinking I just don't need nothin'. I don't think the Disney parade is shit.

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Auditions

They casted people with a sweet, milky, tangy look. I know I did well.



They mentioned look-alikes. I just want to be in the parade. I am so depressed. I keep not making things and getting kicked out for no reason. I know I was the only best.



Why do you want me to get violent. We'll see how your next job goes.

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Why

do you always have an excuse?

Back

Sorry @ my shit formula, but I thought it was funny considering what happened.

Twitter

Good News!

My therapist and psychiatrist like the new me talking..talk talk talk

Eye Doctor

So, I'm getting blue contacts.  Ah, my eyes are dilated.

So, did you know there is only 1 color?

Nothing to Do

I'm excited @ the parade thing, but it's gonna be shit, people complaining about not being from Florida at birth.

Oh wow, forgot, oh yes, Ginny .. so, these people all are in the mold of my brat cousin with a young mom.  Hope you get it.  You know, that is so grotesque.  Don't involve me in shit.  I am not shit.  I am not even related to my brother!!!!  You all are snots, Ellen, Tim.  You are like *******y rubbing it in.  It's "all you are and all you're for" attractive bad people who cheated in life.

Back

in Black

Bed time when my 4 layers of nail polish finish drying.  Was like at the doctor's all day, psychiatric ward..

New Video

New Video of Me

You know

Tim, before your rule, like I was in New Orleans and it was like precious to go across the bridge and have fun in Mississippi when I was a little older more.

What if

only dorky German boys were mad @ people born in SE Florida?  It's a culture, Broward and Dade.  Big as Holland?  Except you navigate to the beach.  I don't believe SE Florida is as big as Holland and neither is New Orleans and its cultural area.  I think Slidell was not worse than the cities next to it, but some people think so.  I think it was closer in longitude.

No, thank you.

I'm not interested in just dinosaurs from the South in year 1600 or 1800.

What @..

New Orleans?  Is it safe to you?  I was told there was "more" elsewhere, like just the North.  We think we are from a better climate that the South that isn't on the water.

Fun

Europe is fun, isn't it?

What do you think @ Chloe Moretz from New Orleans?  She's just Southern.

Stupid

People think if you keep thinking a certain way, the next thing that pops in their mind is right.  What you do is you have to set it up yourself, and sometimes the coaster will be happy.

Wah (Why?)

What do you think @ Ginny thinking I can't have it all, like look like a Barbie AND a farmer girl?

OMG

Go to Hell.  Stop saying people I look up to are as good as me, all of a sudden, nigger.

So

Because I watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" does not mean she like talks to people I know instead and makes the 1s related to me suffer because of hard times.  She thinks someone else will, and then I get to know, and the other person responds as a ditz.  WTF could you do?  You could say like think you're cursing them to feel bad, like @ something.  You just have to learn to forget and realize I have problems, too.

Just Wondering

Why before when Tim Burton was nice was my family able to be normal and not suffer in front of me?  They didn't do it, I did it.  Let's make Tim Burton ******,

New Photos

of Me

Oh, sorry.

It's taking awhile with this camera.

New Photos

of Me

A Good Experience

is for young people to talk to older kids or young adults whatever.

I mean, encountering a Late Boom adult is always riveting, but I absolutely will not tolerate being born for an Early Boom and like be treated like I'm a big, **y lug by Late Boom, like just they're the 1 who's strong and prissy.  I swear, I do not do it in ***, but I do get that treatment from Late Boom people I know more.

Update

Edited Side Text Box @ Education Goals..

New Photos

of me also both put in set

Something Else for Me .. to Do

flute - link - $100 (with supposedly all cleaning stuff included, also nice hot pink)

flute book - link - $8

Rollins

MUS 361 Music History: Renaissance/Baroque     4 s.h.
MUS 362 Music History: Classic/Romantic     4 s.h.

Lessons - 12 hours
A lot of people make it who do both singing-reated jobs and playing instruments.

MUA 201 OR MUA 301 OR MUA 401 Applied Music     8 s.h.
MUSIC ELECTIVES     16 semester hours

School Plan

-Speech|Communication
-Composition 2
-Music Lit.
-Music Theory 3 + 4
-Humanities
-Math
-Math
-Science
-Science
-Government
-Social Science
-Music Performance Lessons (2)
-Ensembles (2)

12 Classes

Semester 1 - Fall 2013 - age 27
-Organ Lessons
-Symphonic Band
-Theory 3

Semester 2 - Spring 2014 - age 27
-Organ Lessons
-Symphonic Band
-Theory 4

Semester 3 - Summer 2014 - age 28
-Music Lit.

Semester 4 - Fall 2014 - age 28
-Government
-Humanities
-Composition 2

Semeter 5 - Spring 2015 - age 28
-Math
-Science
-Social Studies

Semester 6 - Summer 2015 - age 29
-Math
-Science
-Speech|Communication

Activities - Singing Lessons (not sure if I should break from it sometime or if I'll have had enough like)

AA - Music

Go to Rollins maybe to sing.  Possibly stay in dorm and come home sometimes.
Option 2 - UCF.

Graduate probably in 2 years with BM in Singing then do a MM in Music Education, with lots of online options.

Every ½ year audition for for casting agency.

So, maybe get a BM when I turn 31.

Update

Update

Update

Update

That's a wrap.

Sorry, Chloe, if you don't use the word damn with your mom.  My dad was chasing after me when I said fuck.  Sorry, I'm a case.

O K

nap

Benefits

People are acting like I'm an annoying, bothersome stuck-up.  Something good for me, and it's utter disbelief in some connotation.  Quit treating me like my brat cousin!

When I was in the New Orleans area

I was supposed to be a New Orleanian.

Lost Mah Life

Could anyone just kick me out to catch up on sleep?

At Your Service..

This Ginny pig sure don't have manners.  Orlando is not better than me.  I am an honored Slidellian.

Summer Rest

I hope Ellen is catching up as much as I am.

Una Problema Grandioso

Ellen, what could possibly be the matter?

Doggy Moment!

You were jealous of my noble blood, says the dog.

So

Did you know there's a lotta hatred for brunettes?  Chloe doesn't have much brunette depth.

So

How is she ***ier than me?

Hurting Public Figures

I hope Ellen didn't like wake up 1 day and say like .. I will hurt public leaders.

Problem

I keep getting stupid messages from Ellen DeGeneres.  STOP.  You like shit.

Rather Brilliantly Annoyed..

If you are extra nice to Chloe, then that's your prerogative not mine.  I hope this doesn't have anything to do with me.  Ya'll also like stupid people.

See, I was not a mean person.  I am attacked by you.  These people are snotty.  I'm not born to be the shit.

Me Not Being Interesting to Jews

Erm, then why did you look different?

New Video

New Video of Me

New Photo

and in set

Flickr

Ir..I..I

Chloe doesn't say anything.

So

Now what?

I think I was positive about other people.

Waky Waky

You even know how high the bar is set?

You know..

Chloe thinks she's more Southern and lives more north of me our whole lives.  Okay, so, then I'm special.

Clutz

I'm being very clutzy, I feel bursts of like shakes emitting my hands and now fingers.

What do I really think?..

If I'm not supposed to do something, I just don't think it.  People try to see "what I really think."

How dumb can you be?

Why can't I take my heritage from the New Orleans area?

Working With..

So, what do I have to work with, now?  I mean since everyone gets an opportunity to better themselves.  Tim Burton is not the end of the end, but his daughter is.  That's something to talk about, isn't it?

Emergency Note

So, 1st, everyone goes, Christina is all-around usually nicer than Chloe Moretz's purpose in living, maybe not something to show her but something that comes up, something I'd be able to talk @ if I didn't move to the bayou.

Well

Maybe, I don't like ya'll's "safe" races.  I don't give a fuck.

Some things you don't talk @.

Don't drill in my head the Asian race when I talk @ Ellen DeGeneres.  Bad!  I can't not react to everything.  I don't know why she's putting sick people on her show.  She looks in trouble..

Interesting (and Relevant..) Topic

How is Chloe Moretz more like Ellen DeGeneres, than me?  I was like her even before we moved.

What's wrong?

Chloe Moretz is sweet but doesn't admit I'm cool, thinks it should be a secret.  What's wrong with being from Florida?

Unwanted Reactions

I figured people were just bad, don't know how to just ignore.  I feel invaded by wrongdoers.  I really am from Florida.  Stop making up perverted stuff all the time.  I don't feel for ya.  I am thankful my dad's 2nd company was in New Orleans..

Issues

What's all this shit because of Tim Burton?  I am not stimulating (in a good way)?  I didn't propel myself by sinning.

La't Naaight

I had 2 little patties of beef (not a burger?), a huge bunch of spinach, multi-grain crackers.  A lemon cookie biscuit.

What I Was Let

I wasn't allowed to think I was a good person.  My mom impressed with you?  Was my option to begin with.  I am not my dad, and I am not my mom.

School Goals

2 Science
2 Math
1 English
2+ Humanities
Government
Speech
1 Soc St?

Maybe, I'll go to school in the Fall or Spring.  I'm getting a Disney pass in the Fall, though, and wanna go a lot, so I might have to just wait.  No point in trying English online, if attempted a 3rd time something @ my grade staying.

Then, music.

Update

new text box info.

Supercision

So, my mom "doesn't" help my dad and won't let me supersede.

Why is she always cracking nuts?

Why is Ellen always cracking nuts?

So

What if me being nice and Ellen being racist means I'm better, better off how I am?

Twitter

So

Any crap from fame or the n word I'll just bite back and go curl up on my bed, again.

No Aim

Ellen has no aim.  Like, she'd get mad at me for my Twitter background before.

STOP

Stop showing off, Tim, I've been better than you, I don't give a fuck that you were a director.

Oh

You don't like those words.  Well, too bad, they don't really mean poo.  And I'm not some lunatic, but I think the world has moved on.  Moved on socially.  I can no longer grow.  Isn't that because of the type of popularity of Tim Burton to crazy, mean kids and their parents who don't want us to be happy happy like them cuz I would like to be a good happy happy person.

Mad

Just stop ruining my life, you complex dummy.

Let me get this out.

Why should I give a shit about Ellen DeGeneres?  She is mean most of the time.  I mean, yea, I still like her the best.

I might give a shit, but then again.. maybe it's just Tim Burton who I think is a dummy, but many thoughts of hate go to Ellen because of her acting like I did something wrong.  So that's what, and apparently that's all she is.

Problema

TIM BURTON STOP RUINING MY LIFE WHY SHOULD I GIVE A SHIT I respected you more than you respect yourself!  Admit that, with your *beep* daughter, showing her off, acting like she's better, spoiling the brat.

Is anyone just against..

Tim Burton?  I got a funny idea come to me that he wants to stimulate everyone.  I don't give a fuck.  Dum Dum.  I don't fuckin care where you're from.  We're not Dum Dums, like you.

Early Morning Workout

Core + Upper (Jillian Michaels "No Trouble Zones")

Breakfast with Dad - I know I had 2 little packages of cheesy grits today.

Find My Parents Also Repulsive

I am worried that my mom is being stupid like usual, acts like I'm nothing and makes me not feel like achieving anything.  She probably just came outta her shell.  I am nice, I complain, but THAT'S OKAY!!!!  I don't have to do the bloody chores until my homework level decreases and I get some peace in life, sometimes do the towels still, did it more before I went to school.

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New Video of Me

Nothing Good

When there's nothing good to think @, we think @ death.

Nice

to have young people in your life.  I'm dead scared of losing people in my life.  I mean, I understand that you can get old but what about things like the hallucination of an early death?

Sorry

if anything I said offended everyone, don't think that's my intention.

Morning Everyone

I got up on my sofa, singing practiced but cell phone recorder or memory not working.. dropped taped to wall too long, was like ah!

So, I thought @ death and was pretty sad, death of parental people, that age and type..  A boy from England who's like 42 who I met when was 38 or 39 told me I was old or getting there.  Thinks that's my problem.

Problema

My family does not poke their noses in others's business, like lots of fams, so listen and don't do it again.

Problema

Everyone acts like they're always picking at me in code.

Wow

Chloe wants to talk to me from the South.

Problema

Mrs. Moretz, what is wrong with your daughter?  I don't give a damn where you're from.

Una Problema

Ellen, you're mean bc of the n word thing and a bad person bc you are mean to me.

Hmph

Ellen + Chloe = shit

Spoiled Brat

I told her my mom was from the heat, too, and I think she retaliated.

like omg

What's Chloe's problem?  You support that mum weirdo?

Una Problema

Chloe thinks she puts stuff there for us.  I'm from the South, I don't need to believe she's more Southern.  She's stuck on having parents not from the South of the U.S.

New Video

of Me

YouTube

New Photo

of Me

Flickr

Problemas

Oh, and don't say you're a 90s brat and I wasn't alive then.  I am not bullshit like everyone else, lollol.

Un Problemas

I feel sorry for poor Chloe Moretz.  She's so tacky in a mean way.

Sorry if the plural title of my post is suggestive to you as a person.  :|

So

What do you think of lazy Pennsylvanians

Una Problema..?

So, Ellen Tweeted something, and then Chloe did.  Um, no Chloe I am from the South.  You are from the North.  Lotta benefits with a New Yo'ker dad.

Also

I put some of my music up this morning, up all night somehow, lay down sometimes.  I put some up before, too.

Kinda Sad

I thought I did pretty good today, just don't know what happened.  I posted some of my singing from last week.  I don't think I had time to listen to it all.  Now, what am I gonna do?  Why doesn't she just tell me I don't have to listen to it all?  It never sounds that good.  What she might just be ticked off at me being happy about something like everyone else.  SHUT UP CLICK IN MY ROOM YOU'RE SETTING ME OFF.

Una Problema

Why should I give a fuck @ things she does.. she probably knows I was sad about my mom in glasses, blamed Ellen DeGeneres.  So, what, don't rebound on me.  I don't give a fuck, I'm from Florida, ya here?  I'm not even just from Florida, I'm from a suburb!  HEY SHUT UP NOISE IN MY ROOM DON'T BOTHER ME FOR TALKING LIKE A NORMAL PERSON.

HEY

Stop making fun of me for my singing lessons progress.  I thought my teacher recorded it all but didn't.  Found different reasons.  Well, SOR RY, but you'll be SOR RY.  You won't really be sorry by me, I mean technically.  I woulda recorded myself, actually.  Let's see, I did okay, today.. maybe the middle song messed up too much, you know practiced it several times in 1 day.  She told me to do these losening up exercises like 3 times a day.  Ha ha, very funny.  Maybe, it stopped working.  I thought I could use her speakers again, but she had to use a small 1 for some reason.  Maybe, she likes that.  She's a quack.

Oh, I forgot.

She was supposed to give me a CD to give to my mom, and instead she got a book|little booklet.  It almost got ruined, but I saw there was a CD in it.

So

My teacher gave my mom a book instead of a CD in a sorta mean way, so 2 negatives = ..  for my mom.  Her eyes went to an extent, and she owns glasses.  You know, I don't see her wear them.  They were supposed to be for school, as well as the road.  I think 2 physical injuries caused that, and she had another.

Also, my teacher's mamma is from California.  I don't give a damn to sit here and follow her like I did Tim Burton just to find how she insulted me because I believed in California and I just so happened to find out ya'll're shit because you act like my cousin with a younger dad than mine.  You just let your life be run by the n word thing.  No, I don't wanna go back.  I did come from Florida, not my parents.

Or for me

every vacation

A Week

of our lives is utterly wasted.

So, why

are Ellen DeGeneres's emotions so extreme and like bursting out like a piece of candy?

For your sake, I should disclaim my point and just say I'm making 1.  I mean, like if she's mad, it's okay, but it's very annoying the way she likes guys her age, sorry, so do I, but I mean, I also have a mom who's more "young" and a dad who's older and I feel she really believes I'm crap how stupid so does my mom.

Una Problema

I'm such an attention-getter.  Why not pay attention to something you're really after, meaning like ^Tim Burton^  :|  .."Tim - Burton - the Great"  ^0^

Eating

Just yogurt.  I like treats, too.

Buttt

Only stupid people keep promoting crap.

Well, sorry, I said stupid a lot lately.  I'm crazy.  It should go away..  :|  Guess I have a leash and collar.

So.. what?

Oh, so I can't say 1 risque thing anymore I know now and you don't give a fuck still wanna fuck bad people .. and it's no different for you than if I did it regularly, though the situation is a irregular.

Twitter

Upset

If anyone from the New Orleans area had it down, it wouldn't just simply be no competition Ellen DeGeneres who lives in L.A.  }:}

Una Problema

Ellen, I didn't really like seeing you buckering up people who are nice to be mean to me, like I was thinking about New Orleans, seems you want to be the Queen.  It was even something so important as staying out of fighting.  Ooh, you people online are stupid.  That was the big lesson of the day, you know 1 of them, probably pretty big and 1 of the biggest.  You know, I think a lot of people there if not being in the spotlight are successfully set about to right their own lives and find out their own mistakes.

Bet

Seems my dad is feeling gay about what I said this time because he agrees that the issue is a negative 1 because of problems but wouldn't say.  I talk, though, and if something's not okay I just say sorry.  All I can think of is it making you like look bad.  I do believe and am positive you guys anyone who knew me would accept if I got upset like this.  Tim Burton is the 1 who caused it, though.  You think I blame him for all my problems.

Mean

You're lal just mean because of the n word thing.

So

You are all over the brattiness of my cousin, no surprise.  I'm worry ti say it's not a big deal.

Sorry

I'm sorry, but I know you don't wanna waste your temper on my cousin.

Una Problema

It's a bit odd, you take to people just because of what you found someone else did.  Let 'em figure it out, themselves.  I tried to take back what I said.

Hmph

I am not a mean person.  I may really think something on the negative side I proposed but not what you think I meant!  I do agree it was wrong, unflattering you'd say, and just unnecessary but hard to fudge around and probably not worth having to try.

Oh, no!

So, what all do you think about what we say @ my cousin being so important?  I guess I suggested something they want to blame me for when I thought I'd merely confided in my aunt..not even about her directly.

So, that means ya'l just fell for their meanness and they will probably care about if I feel good, guess there's not so much behind everyone's actions, not meaning to suggest something typical, which didn't actually mean to joke @ it in 1 way, you know?  Don't know if I'll have time to get it so I always explain what you don't understand.  I'm not threatening anyone..

I just feel I keep getting people pressuring me to do things that are hard to avoid, as well.  That can be stressful and a waste of time..

*shrugs*  Hard to say something and not have someone say it's typically suggestive, though in some ways it is "suggestive" just not others.

Everywhere I turn, I keep getting this.  I feel people..I dunno.  I just want to know I'm right and you're wrong.  If you say something bad about someone bad doesn't make them better than you!  Just a related thing to say..  :|

Woke Up

Think I slept 6 hours on sofa with lights on and earplugs.

Remember my diet!

Eating

I guess I'll have fruit and yogurt .. Plain greens (leaves) and plain meat. Toast?

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Una Problema

Some people in Orlando are mean to me. They say I'm guilty of something small.

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Una Problema

Ya'll give a shit @ what I said about ny brat cousin to my aunt. Hm, I wonder what I should do @ my spoiled aunt.

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The Reason

The people in Orlando aren't like me. There is a reason for everything the way it is under the sun.

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Una Problema

I do not practice being an Asian on purpose. So, I do not have Asian traits.

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Una Problema

There's a guy driving me home being nasty. The people in Orlando aren't real. He keeps digging into me. Her's racist. He wouldn't be mean to someone else.

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How I Feel

Tired? Not when I get in my room.

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Mobile

Foood

Dessert?  I'm too weak!

I feel a call.

So, I m**********, again, all alone.  The sad thing was I sorta hung onto the idea of watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and felt ooh maybe I don't have to feel it.  Well, I'd such a rough week, I gave into this feeling the Ellen DeGeneres was supporting me.  Like I wasn't as like strong as her.  :(  :)  There's a way where I feel, not big, though, that submits, I guess now.  I dunno, if I were on my own, I may be fine in the world.  It's hard to find what to do.

Nite

Falling down on my couch

Update

I put a new photo in and into the set of Me 1.

Flickr

Asians

I know they seem ugly, but you can't force them to say they want to be Asian, in that way no one likes.

..just realized something

I never acted tacky like a 1950 girl insteada a 1960 girl

New Photos

New Photos of Me

Check out the link to the side.

Un Problema

Before what Ellen would have thought of me was better moralistically than the upcoming of the stupid N word thing.  In fact, it's positively treacherous.

Singing Practice

(Wed) Day 1 - warm-ups + Sweeney Todd 1 time long song
(Th) Day 2 - same thing
(Fri) just fell asleep this day
(Sat) realized I was too tired after hungry and eating
(Sun) dunno how many times I warmed up but sang like 3 sessions of waiting until I lost my vocal quality

My plan, do more sessions if you skipped significantly.  I just get tired and sleep on the sofa.

Remember, Fri day is fun day!

New Recordings of Me Singing and Singing More

TV

ellen

Oh no!

My teacher sounds like that lady! sometimes.. What if it doesn't come 0ff  Well, you know, it's like, why?  She doesn't sound like me.

More

Having 1 of 4 vanilla yogurts.  I asked for 2.  Came in a pack.

Una Problema

Ellen is shit to people like Tim waiting tackily for some perfect little angel.

Change

My mom made Chai Tea, don't remember when I'd had it before.  She didn't come to pick up my pill plate.  She brought an extra cup without the animal top that was out there before when she didn't tell me to come.  You know, we can h*** you, too.  :{  I CAN SAY WHATEVER I WANT.  I am tired of getting mad and then people being stupid and not saying anything but letting out emissions of their jealousy to you.  Please leave me alone, this is true, people are mean to me and won't talk to me.  There's no such thing as a bad word or phrase, only what you're really trying to say.

So

I guess when I do something it reaches Heavenly heights.  What about Ellen with her mother's Jewish-European last name?

My thing is though being happy like the days of and before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

Let's gossip about Nell, though, Ellen acting mean is the equivalent of my dad's youngest sister's illegitimate daughter being whiney and acting like she's the cutest most Caucasian, a wild brat, repulsive and not sure what else I can say beyond this point.  She is mean and now acting coy since the n word thing..  I think 2 of her boyfriends committed suicide.  That was after her divorce, but she still keeps the guy, who is Portugese's, last name.  She is kind to me, but that's what she's like around everyone else since she was little.  When she was very little she was mean to me.  That's okay.

Problema

Yu can't just do whatever you want to me because of the N word thing.  Something gbad could happen to you.

Problemas

All this bullcrap from Tim Burton and Ellen DeGeneres.  N WORD THING.

STOP

Stop looking to my own dad pervertedly when I talk @ the experiment.

What

Just making sure?  You always irritate me though.

STOP

STOP

I got another stupid message.  Yea, go blame Ellen.  I got a Word Captcha, 1st time I remember talking @ it, where it said something like Deepen.  So it's deeper with more to the r than there is.  I don't give a crap Ellen @ your nigger fetishes.  You have enough attention.  YOU ARE MEAN.

I'm sorry.

I don't want to be a nigger like Ellen.

Ellen is too like pushing of me to fuck like shit.  I'm serious.  She can't get over her mom's Jewish last name.  She keeps acting slippy, like I slipped over, and that it's because of the n word thing is why I'm mad..

I just said what was on my mind not sure what I mean by it at the moment don't care.. it was just there.. I mean it sounds funny and it seems it's gotta be said.. dunno, take it back if you didn't think it was really that funny.  I kinda wanna but don't really feel good.

Don't Give a Fuck

I don't give a fuck, Orlando, annoying people can't affect me feministically.  They are very invasive here.  They say they have to be.  There are some things I just don't seem to do.  I am only mad however if it was done on purpose to me via the experiment.  My mom just came in and was feeling for what I was thinking, and I won't take that bullshit.  You're all bullshit because of the n word thing, go suck on it.  Ooh, don't mean anything, I'm sorry if you are just sitting there thinking of a grandeur way to "say" and lie things.

Suing

So, in the mental hospital it was horrible place..there was a lady who seemed to pick on me, very big, very very tall, and pretty fat.  She wailed.  I felt she was trying to affect me, but I just withstood it.  I was wondering if she was also affecting me feministically.  You see, I didn't happen to go to Ginny's class 1 semester cause anyway I also got wind she wouldn't be nice to me because of the N word thing.  So, don't hurt her.  She even tried singing like her, and I felt sorry.  When I said even, I meant that she was like not ignorant of this, somehow.  I did learn more about being motherly before stepping into class.  I would only say you wanna step up to the diving board naky naky?  I even have to provide my own music for singing lessons by her, so.  Ugh!  xp  She wants more musical theater stuff.  Need money!  3 more weeks of like 5 songs ready, though, know lots, but I know a few that aren't musical theater, not practicing them right now.  Anyway, the lady at the mental hospital I had found was there a long time.  She was my roommate and nice to me, was blind to the point she had to feel for things, part blind or very blind.  People were caring to her.  However, she wailed with a very infected noise to me.  My other roommate was a Viet with like a cyllinder skull, to tell you the truth.. but I found her very like respectable.  She seemed very holistic, you know?

Apologies

For anything I spewed.

I just thought that Ellen and people might be stimulated by me thinking I'm Chinese telling them to get a blog so they aren't jealous and stupid.

Well, some people think I

don't have real feelings.

That was

rather stimulating, I am a bit fat.

Maybe

You need to be an experiment, want someone there all the time.

Una Problema

I feel I'm being attacked, and I don't need your stimulation, sicko.

Your Privacy

can be taken away by me

So

Let's just enjoy "what Ellen does."

I will not.

I will not accept Tim Burton's daughter is smaller, daintier, and even sweeter, though she is probably 1 of the sweetest people and children there are.

I fear I found a fart.

Sorry, just a funny thing from something.  Anyway, I am going along with my life and I feel Ellen lagging behind acting all picky and antsy by choice.

Not Mad

Just listening to my singing.  Ellen is good, but I felt that Tim wanted to take my mom from me, like ruin us, but do it for his chubby daughter.  Everyone shouldn't look the same.  Helena filled her up.  Tim really "blames" me.  Tim can't really satisfy his itch.  He can't say my mom isn't for me.  He probably already did.  He thinks my mom should have been as authentic to her in her home about her as she was to me, her 1st of 2 babies.

Threats

Ellen made it so she could send me threats, now, I am okay with her, though, but she's not okay with herself, wants to be the little 1.  Well, I'm not a big 1 to you.

O K

I got the feeling Ellen would talk back .. wouldn't work, then she calls me a nigger, not white, not European.

Una Problema

So, don't tell anyone they make you feel good and not know for sure because they'll start tearing up your world right and left because of their fear of the public eye.  You can't just say I'm mean to save your hide.  I've always been told I was perfectly sweet, shy, smart, and trustworthy.  I was the class angel, in a sense, but a shy 1..  I was also considered a good friend in my life, luckily for me.  People I think used to admire me...  People younger than me for awhile wanted to be just like me.  Then, I meet Tim Burton, and this is what happens, he says he can't .. he is like Ellen DeGeneres, thinks they're better than other people with success, more famous, too.  I think they are human just like me.  They think they are godly.  I guess Tim Burton propelled this thought, but I found Ellen to display this reaction, as well, LOL, "reaction.." what else is there to say about that, the word "reaction."  It's funny to me because she is this great figure and thinks I should look up to her punishing me, sending signals in an experiment at any given moment, you know like little ticks for example.  Tim Burton isn't as fun, doesn't seem as positive about me, like he can't change the world, like why does the world do that, they're sitting there waiting for you to do lots of things and for some reason are strangely patient.  It's been 8 years, and that's a lot of life to me.  I feel like death.. sorry...  Guess I'll post this at this ending??

I am

not a social brat but wild and crazy at home.

So, why

is Tim Burton picky @ everyone else, and just how long does your identity take to register, people like Ellen who wears glasses to see up close.  I had such good vision up close and felt like I was smart like science.  I'll go ahead and say it, Johnny Depp doesn't watch himself.  Guess he had people help him growing up.  I don't care how complicated, I enjoy what a normal person has..

Do you care?

Ellen, I don't care how fucking smart your secret messages are, sorry if you don't think the word fuck is amusing beyond amusing.  I noticed that Tim Burton had a meeting with a short boy on 1 side.  You had Martin Short crossing his eyes on your show.  I was just thinking @ Nell, and for some strange reason the thought that popped up was that him being a *** symbol who's not cooler than everyone and not me, thinking he can rub more in on us @ the grandeur of his spoiled brat.  I don't want to know the allure of my mother, but I don't think she's better than me and find her quite mean, only nice at certain moments.  You think she should have everything just because she is your daughter and you think everyone else is shit or a nigger, and I told you he was racist to me.  Then, he has to think @ my dad being born in 1950 because I bet he found it by chance or whatnot.  Why is he the only person left with a brain?  Well, not technically, but most everyone in -some- way, including myself.  Why don't you go care @ other moms, you want a neat thing, my mom, that's why you're so mean and like stealing about it??

You know what I hate?

Ellen DeGeneres thinking she's the cute 1 in the family compared to me when it's the opposite effect, like my whole life's effort and worth!  I have the feeling she feels like "the 1" who did something for me, sorta boring into my childhood of gymnastics and the unraveling after I stopped the classes.  I admit she does look good, maybe that major in communications??  Have I missed the boat?  She did it for 1 year.  It seems more the worth than I was ever ablet to get in.  I have 3 successful semesters.  1 is 1 class Flex Start for 1 credit hour.  It was a study aid course, however, so it was on the easier scale.

Stop

You keep telling me my dad is crap and to accept him, but we had a nice distant relationship that was perfectly fine, then I came home from college.

Tacky People With My Dad! LOL

So, when people say his name, I just feel they are rubbing in my current "close" relationship to this man.  Like, the ticks in my room for the experiment.  Sorry, I feel so nasty, like you don't really like me, like you need a mommy|daddy.  Why should I look up to you, still?  Yes, though, I mean if you wanna act like a child, too, that's perfectly fine, fine by me.  Know others will think you're crazy like me.  I don't know people well enough to say much on it nor to claim how something is okay or not okay.  :/  You know, everyone has different dynamics to their personality.

Not Safe in My House

Watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  She can do whatever she wants via media to hurt me because of her natural insecurities of the n word situation and not really get in trouble.

Una Problema

Stop threatening me in a tacky way at the inflection of my voice or whatnot.  Johnny Depp does this.  I did what I was supposed to like everyone else, and I just hear a bunch from people of like farting bullcrap.  Meanies!  So, then, also, Johnny Depp, don't think that's okay, to say you're nice then to like kill me using my own dad as the stimuli..yea who wants that?  Because we're close.  You just want a sacrificial lamb and to k**l other people because you are related to the 1st freed black woman.  Who knows, maybe he was covering Tim's LOL decidely "poor" direction by making sure his movies don't come to life, as Tim agreed, though..

The Net

You losers act like I'm weird and inappropriate, but I'm just investigative and not talking to you, in particular.

Apology

Sorry, Ellen, for if I said something wrong online, from talking on IMDb, about you and how you're stimulated.  I just tried to be rather factual and not creative.

O K

So, I was online talking @ Ellen DeGeneres and realized lots of points.  Sorry, if I didn't use enough finesse talking @ her as a baby.  Wow, did she have the 1960 thick skin.

Loser

Ellen, stop belittling perfectly nice families.  It was your decision not to have a family.  Too bad you couldn't fit it in.  I wonder if you'd still like anyone.

Tired

When will I practice?  Hungry, too, gotta get to bed early.  Feel so shitty going in there and cooking with the fam.

Mad

Ellen, stop being mean like you punish people bc you're *beep* *beep* *beep* *beep*  I GREW UP AS THE NICE SHY GIRL AND STILL AM THE ANTI-RACIST SOCIAL INTEREST INDIVIDUAL ON THE INTERNET.

Mad

Ellen doesn't answer, she just jokes .. doesn't act like she hears you and thinks it's cool and Caucasian.  She's onto the N word thing.  Why doesn't she just go make love?  She sure is extra mean, but you think that's impressive.  Well, I'm tired of this shit.  I always post @ it.  Stop ruining my world, Ellen.

WHO CARES

Lily Rose is playing it safe when you're the 1 who's not, who's not, who's not safe.

Ellen isn't sweet online.  No one is.  She'll tell you you're a nigger if you try to do something right because she'd want attention from people in the world more individually.

BAH

I'm tired of Ellen thinking she's more European.

I got an idea.

Ellen is so weird.  She wants to hurt people.  I said that some people move away to get away.

Hmph

Let's put Ellen off - she thinks those rednecks from her place know how ta live.

And

O Wow

I did nothing my whole life to Ellen.  She's just being annoying because of that N word thing, more sissy than others.

Just thought of something even funnier.

Just thought of something even funnier.  Ellen can come to Florida herself.  Most people are from up north it seems or their parents are, probably.  Dunno, lots of the 1s from way back leave, not sure where to but probably everywhere.

What a Looney Tune!

Sorry, but a predicament..?  Ellen DeGeneres thinks Florida is for New Orleanians.  I wouldn't say that.  I mean, I can connect, but I have mixed U.S. heritage, all good, I'm sure, but you know I'm used to it here am from here.  Ellen, why can't you explain?  You're just kidding.  The people there are like from up north.  Well, south, too.  I mean, what exactly about the weather is it that bites you?  LOL bites you!  ;D  Watchall think, whatever?  I know you're all just being mean.  I AM FROM FLORIDA.  You're just saying I did nothing my whole life.  You have mother heritage and still have time to complain?  What if I wasn't from Florida?  Well, I am not from just Florida..  I didn't grow up the whole way to 21 here.  Good thing, for the people here are not at peace.  I got to being alone so am well off this way..  Sorry, if you are offended about me being Floridian, but I know you're just focusing on how jazzy, spicy, and beachy it is in the hills of Pennsylvania or NY state but not upstate.

ARGH ---8p

Ginny doesn't know the dynamics of music found in playing an instrument for a long time.

So

El len

That's where I learned music.  I'm a child prodigy @ 27.

You wouldn't believe..

..how authentic and exquisite are the things on display in the oldest continuing city in the U.S., somehow where I lived a proper life "downtown."  I think you just turn a corner, know there are gas stations, but seemed like we were closest.

Yes, it is Spanish, much like English and French.  I do not know of the people who were there since the beginning, must have left.  We wondered.

Alert

I'll post this now that people in Orlando want to fuck my dad to bestiality.  They want to fuck him away from me.  Like the relationship quality..

What Happened

They died.

Southern Shit Hospitality

Hmph.  You're so perverted.  I have an outline saved so I can see the stars align.  You know, people don't usually stay in Florida long, a long time ago..

Going Back

I always go back and remember who my enemies are.

Problema

Ellen, I don't need to see myself be shit to be anything in the world.

Hmph, my hip unstretched @ my dad, it was fine, but he didn't seem comfortable and I bet he did it on purpose, though it seems not in actuality.  Ever since Nell, everything has gone wrong, though she's just a really cute baby..  :|

ARGH

Can you leave me alone!

Tim Burton did shit to me for something he didn't even get to know I felt.

My Personality

I'm pretty nice.

I dunno

Just seemed like a message, no I don't want to be too skinny.

Mo'? Still

You can't just count me out, in a secret message.  I mean, it makes sense, but I mean it's probably true, just say no to me.  Maybe, just not the same interests?  What's a European girl to a Floridian?

Twitter

Ugh!

I tried to make it a morning, but sorry I was so stupid not to be able to talk differently, at that time, but you know I will only get dummer in that way.

Un Problemas

Ginny isn't shit.  I had to wear what I had and found some nice things at Wal-Mart, am stuck without much but started liking blazers.  And I got kicked outta class.  PE's fault.  What else?  My room should be clean soon enough.  Will practice singing.  Had Crystal Lite some not sure if I'm hungry, had some grapes with my pills.

Unhealthy Relationships

I see kids together at the mall, what about me?  I'm tired of walking around this toenail house.

m0-0m

I'm not going to like my dad in a crappy way.

Whoops

If you don't curse, then they don't care about completing the life as a holistic experience.

Problema

I have a problem, people want me hurt for my parents thinking harshly of people I think are nice.  They are just shit.

"I had a dad."

I know other people did, too.

Hm, yesterday I was letting go and just was upset and wouldn't take my parents's bullcrap hurting people, having a belief people ended the world after an interim of time following Johnny Depp as Willy Wonka in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  I wasn't mean, but I had gotten mad so am dropping the other shoe and reacting to it not in a way like someone on catnip skirting around everything and anything, no choice really, have to be truthful, which I know Americans, maybe not so much Floridians, aren't.

Problemas

So, the kids who are teenagers now like to be helped not to hate other people, but I know those people want me as shit and like these people better.  I know it in the blood and flesh, I ain't no northern city gal.

Musing

So, Ellen is overshadowing young teens and not me.  I don't like the feeling of thinking they're "hers" and I'm just shit.

You wanna know what's wrong

Having me look like my dad in a tacky way.. maybe it's the way the egg rolls.  I do not think that was a good idea, whatever my dad couldn't take.  I mean, he's not a nigger.  I don't know what the fuck my mom thinks about this innocent man to her.  Well, maybe not anymore, supposedly, his raising his voice @ communicating gets annoying and her too much acting like she's a fairy with me as a toad is what it is.  My dad has us make sure we respect her, but it had gotten violent.

OMG

You can't just attack me for a baby picture and tell everyone.  Isn't that my parents's fault?  That I looked so bad, fat, unloved racially?  Like I'm really just shit??  It's true.  That's what people think of me.  My parents couldn't provide socially, and neither could anyone else, this "baby."  I posted it cause it was cute in a way, but instead, everyone makes fun of my toenails.  I want a different kind of baby, 1 with alive eyes, strong hair, and a healthy flush if possible.  However, I thought I was still living my childhood.  I won't be considered old to adults.

STOP

Stop threatening me. and future kids.  I am good, you are bad.  I can say whatever I want @ you, you liars.  You think I'm just having fun?  Then, forget it.  Leave me be.  I wasn't talking to you.

STOP

Ginny is hurting me and I don't give a fuck @ what you say @ my practicing at this rate.

Un Problema

If Ginny just believes in great things but doesn't do what she believes in others .. then anyway she seems to have grabbed a fucking banana because I grew up doing well in school and no one thinks that mattesr then I found I couldn't do college lectures and reading, so can't get a degree necessarily.  LOOK MY GRADES DON'T SAY IF I'M A GOOD PERSON.

Problema

Why should we worry @ my cousin.  You liars, I was just confiding something to my aunt @ her mom pointedly, just didn't get it out right 'guess.

Problema

I'm happy blogging finally, please don't get jealous, you fatsos, and tip over my lunch tray.

Problema

I know you just get mad at every little thing.  It is a nuisance.  I have things to do, cleaning, getting in some extra singing practices since I have a lesson tomorrow.  I tried to wait until I was done eating, but I wonder if I should have done it before.  I only practiced 2 days, have an early lesson coming up.  They help me and are worth it, a bit of money but nonetheless made it.  Whatever, don't question me about what I say and regurgitate it to me later.

WHAT'S -YOUR- -BLOODY- PROBLEM..

Bloody as in very or whatever, or crazy.

I was thinking @ this time when I drew toenails on TV with an art program because my dad and brother were there and I guess I felt were into toenails.  I wasn't mean @ it, drew my dad's pimple, too.  I was just trying to be fun, really, they didn't say anything!  Did you know @ that for some reason, think my mom remembered well enough, hopefully not too imprinted on the family.

Also, I think my dad is testing me, said I could do something, and so I did it a little then gave in for him, though I know I didn't have to.

So, what's wrong with nails?  You gonna raid a nail salon?  Something wrong?  Didn't think of it, perhaps, thought of it right away don't really find it important?  Maybe, doctors don't care that much @ the aesthetic of the body??  Everyone's into their fungus nails.  No insult.  Or their funky nails.  Their fat-filled nails that they can control, really!  Ugh!  I always ask am I okay, I can take back what I said if I told you and you didn't like it, but this IS my public blog go get 1 yourself.  It'll be too late to wait.  Really?  Well, I mean, if you think @ it.  Don't just go off and have kids without establishing a blog online, sorry this is in the same paragraph.  Wonder what I should do.

Ah, yes, class.

Um, yes, I believe in dresses and coats and moreover **** junior wear.

Don't tell us to live like shit.  We are appealing, and you are jealous and uncomfortable.  I never was shit, I'm just a bit overweight.

Also, why was Ginny like gaping at my haircut, like I have no hair.  It is a bit sad, maybe should spray it once with highlighter then dye it dark and let it grow out.  It's been played with too much, as well.  It's not so bad once you get long bangs.  Thing is I do like it dyed because I'm not very attractive very easilly.

I am worried that you're all m*********** that you put the interesting people online I met and that it has something to do with your goofball plan.  Just stop talking to me like a nigger.  I am a European, but I heard otherwise online!

It's true some people do that many don't, some just in case someone else wants to.  I heared it in life, too, and I'd not dwell on it, but maybe I'd not find anything to talk @.

Un Problemas

Let's put a bumper in your face and lock you up from communicating properly with anyone.

Now, what was I gonna say?  Why is the room fucking swirling with cool air?  I don't give a damn.

Una Problema

What do you think about saying the word brain when someone keeps being stupid to you and not leaving you alone?

Problema

I don't give a fuck @ anyone from California showing off stupidity in public, judging others like they have a functioning brain because they don't, they're non-American Caucasian minorities..  YOU'RE THE 1 WHO'S WRONG.  LET'S STOP THIS.  I'm sorry you worship Germans.  Unfortunately, all I can say is I have a significant proportion of German on my Caucasian side.

Problema

You'll just find yourself unsatisfied folk for not being as good as you can, as good enough..

What was I gonna say?  :(

If gymnastics was good for me, why like was it so stressful?  I know doing it on your own is what makes you good.  I dunno they have open gym for adults that includes a bar in the facility.  Guess I should make a call after this hectic week is done.

Una Problema

I don't give a fuck @ you niggerers from California with your hidden lust for the shit of my Caucasian dad.

What?

Why don't you lay down the line the lo down of watcha want?

I just got the idea with the speed of the page loading that with what I said @ the experiment it doesn't matter because I have a Chinese mom.  You won't let me call you *beep* and get away with it, how stupid is that?  I don't have to say why that's wrong, but it is.  I want my life.  Did you hear me?  LISTEN AND DON'T MAKE ME CURSE IN ALL CAPS FOR YOU TO GET EVERY POINT IN.  I am a good person, so leave me alone being part Chinese.  I know people with Chinese who look European, at least 1.  She's ¼ from her dad in Briton.  Also, stop like making me feel like I don't deserve to blog.  You're the 1s ruining my life and making me take record of thousands of things.  How else I can rid of your foul treatment of me?  You think you know everything but won't do a thing to change your life.  If you did that, then leave me alone.  Don't go ruining what I have and had.  You know, I only did gymnastics once or twice a week and baton once or twice a week, for a year, and gymnastics years before.  I found when I quit that I was feeling much better but energized very much from the workout.  People just didn't care, though they were bad and claimed I was so good a person.

Stop just barking shit at me.  I'm the 1 properly using a blog, and I already told ya'll or want ya'll to get 1.  This is a big time in life, and you can't just say oh I can't type.  We'll, ye's better start.

Update

New update to my life page.

Problemas

Who should give a fuck @ my dad?  He thinks it's bemusing to put ideas in my head when he doesn't feel well.

Also, I don't m********* to shit.  I don't give a fuck, neither, *beep* from California, the tacky lugs, like who just go, like I said on Twitter, "and the club goes bump goes bump."  Oh my god, we do not care!  I guess there is no modern society in existence.  May as well go to Europe.  Or get your tan in Latin America, though you'll be staining the racial purity there.

Una Problema

-I- am from Florida..dunno where you come from.  I don't wanna live life as bullshit.  I don't give a fuck @ anyone who moves to Florida nor moves away for they all are mean to me.  They total and blast out against only me.  They think I want too much, but whatever they want is probably too much for themselves.  Why can't I just go through life without being bothered?  Who's shitting at me?  In the experiment, I was so respected, but then I did poorly in school and everything hurt, every little sound, and it was from being an astute music major, which should be easy to believe.

Una Problema

Why're ya'll so mean?  I can do whatever I want.  You can't get mad at me for having a hard time at a university.  I wasn't prepared for it in the schools back home though I got good grades.  I didn't cheat.  Maybe, the school cheated.

You can look at my oi

old baby pictures or very young pictures and see that while I was perfect at nailing down shots that look like a human that I wasn't given any encouragement, racially.  If anyone knew me in the 1980s, they would do that.

Una Problema

I wonder why they changed the Disney parade.  I sent in some pictures to ask @ my double chin, just attached them, and they said to come and they'll see what I can do.  I wanted to be the Tinkerbell waver.  The praciting might be influenced by a fear of having Asian genes, but I dunno why that problem would pop up.  True, people are mean to me, but I myself can do it.  Maybe, I'm not as good as who they have now, whom I partly based mine off of, they who based it off of L.A.

Una Problema

So, why you think I have a problem?  I don't.  If we treat someone else differently, we'll see what problems ensue, trust Mummy and Daddy.

Breakfast

Crystal Light drink.

Una Problema

My dad just woke up and for the 1st time signaled something @ me not being white.  Ya'll keep on giving me a hard time, and somehow my room gets very full and I get picked on for putting a few things in storage.  I don't have a cabinet or something to store them away..  This is bc of my shitty situation of having wild, domineering cousins, but that's what everyone would be like, in some form, in private.

Well, now, I am worried that he, that person, my dad, is sad.  Interesting for most people to know.  You know this catches on, I just can't take it.  I walk through the house and should shut up.  I'm most concerned about how it catches on.  I knew it was a bad thing.  Also, my dad is sitting in front of the TV, not eating breakfast..  So, I am very mad and kinda just threw his message out somehow, cuz we live together.  I dunno, it's bothering me.

Also, what of that funny picture of me I thought was okay but where I was really rounded and blubbery?  It looked like I was made fun of.  I guess there wasn't much to do, having a Chinese mom.

You wanna know

Something I've nevver done??

M********** to myself being ½ Chinese.

Somethings just maek me cunomforagable.  xp  Was up Tweeting @ Ellen some of the night.  I don't like how I made myself give in but not like all the way, not sure what to do @ that.  I did have a bad week bc of talking to my aunt @ something.  No hard feelings, it was @ my cousin, just wanted to talk @ something.

Can't Keep Up

Eating my way to bed..Made some odd comments, today.

Twitter

mass posting Twitter

Twitter

WAH

I'm hungry.  I want junk food.

I seen it.

I was feeling my pinky toe, which may not be disgusting but is unexposed - please don't burst into laughing.  Oh no, just thought of tickling toes, which shouldn't be too bad to unravel the fear of.  I should do that to m*********.  Anyway, no, Ellen, I will not unravel everything.  I mean, you do it and then what?  You don't do it!  Except, it did look different but not in a totally good way.  Dunno, have wide feet.

Ellen really believes in certain things, and I do not know why.  It does make sense, I know these things happen, but you don't do it on purpose, just if you're in a certain situation, like where "you're living.."  Why does it seem stupid to you that I quoted that?

I Know

I have an idea, Late Boom isn't even shit, nothing like Generation X because I'm "not good enough" as it stands, too old and wrong style to be of the Late Boom family.

What I Should Have Done

It's nice to sit and think @ this in a journal.

I should have made my stuff even neater, was very taxing physically.  This has been since 2006, no help anywhere.  You know, like nothing would make me feel better.  I did stay home and rest, finally, much later started having the food I needed.

So, what?

My life is still in ruins.  In the future, I don't have any better plans.

Om

Why would someone say you're waiting around for someone better than me?  What did I do wrong?  My life is hard.

Btw did you get any ants in your pants?  What's so stimulating about me saying that?  I was wondering why I heard ants in the pants of these annoying adults.  Stop being mean to me and ruining all my opportunities.  I can do whatever I want.  I don't owe you anything.

Look

I ain't following everyone's bullshit.

Cursed

So, you did hurt me on purpose.  My friend took away a recent Twitter picture.  She had 2.  Funny coincidences.  She has a sarcastic, sorta hurt grin.  I have an old dad, so I can relate, but I have to accept it.  She has nice parents, though, who prize her so much.  I wish I could help her, though.