So, when people say his name, I just feel they are rubbing in my current "close" relationship to this man. Like, the ticks in my room for the experiment. Sorry, I feel so nasty, like you don't really like me, like you need a mommy|daddy. Why should I look up to you, still? Yes, though, I mean if you wanna act like a child, too, that's perfectly fine, fine by me. Know others will think you're crazy like me. I don't know people well enough to say much on it nor to claim how something is okay or not okay. :/ You know, everyone has different dynamics to their personality.