Question

So, my mom can call the police and I can't?

Weird

Yes, I watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" each weekday.  Why can't I make friends otherwise?  She's not the only person I can know in the world.

Openly Dishonest

What about problem causers?

Do you know..

Do you know anyone who can't tell if something seems wrong when it's an issue they can take part in?

Problemas

So, no, I will not act moderin in the way that you say okay we're okay so now I can let out my true feelings because it works in a system and knocks the other thing over like a machine.

Mad

My mom and brother went to walk the dog.  Problem is I was wondering if my mom would call my dad and just call a police.  I was talking @ the screen, didn't like hoarsely shout, "Nigger, nigger."

Another Cut In

Stop being picky @ every little thing I do, stupid.

Let Me Cut In

bw watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Sow"

I don't give a fuck about my cousin niggering me my whole life.

LIKE OMIGOD

o k

Now, I have to have a breakfast and watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  Maybe a shower later.

What It Is

Ah forgot..

E-Mail

Subject: Vanities

I found 2 vanities I liked but think I want the 2nd 1.  I didn't see it before.
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Something Bothersome

My teacher thinks it's self-discipline to think she's better than you and that then you cannot be better than her.  How greedy.

Problema

You guys think it's bad for me to look forward to posting online with Ellen DeGeneres.  I can't just have fun in the world.

Something Weird

Weirdos from New Orleans thinking they're better.  Coming from Florida, I had a similar feeling to other cultures.

Music

Organ well utilizes counterpoint.

What If

I said Ellen was not fun..bc..yea she takes classical type things so seriously.

Making up Stuff

I don't think it's funny.

Code Detection

I can tell Ellen does not appreciate organ.

My Point

My point was my attractiveness from age 2-4, 9-11.. 16-19.. does not mean I deserve to die.

How Gay?

Ellen thinks that being ratty stereotypes all through most of her childhood = being nice to someone?  That means being shitty is nice.  Does she got shit.  Stop complaining that everyone else is having so much fun.

Una Problema

I keep getting attacked and again wanted to say since my life is now shit that I don't give a shit about your 1950s 1990s crap of let me tie this shit up.  Oh, you can leave off, but this is an ongoing experience.  Do you think I even have a brain, now?

Weird

Ellen wastes her time on shit.  I wonder if that's true in some way.

Una Problema

Wasn't that disgusting?

Una Problema

What was that?  LEAVE US ALONE.  TAKE IT BACK.  No, obviously, I didn't do anything.  I AM WHITE I CAN TALK WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT @ YOU AND WHAT YOU REALLY DO.

Issue

I dunno I think my mom bothers me.

Followup

Of course, Ellen won't necessarily read this?  I dunno what she looks up, haven't seen too much.  I don't want to be too direct, indirectly.

Una Problema

O MY GOD ELLEN U MUST BE RACIST MY MOM IS AMERICAN AND DOES NOT NEED YOU STOP FEEDING PEOPLE LIKE HER SHIT LIKE YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT BEING EUROPEAN AND UTILIZE IT RIGHTLY LIKE O MY GOD I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY - SHE IS ALREADY EUROPEAN LIKE YOU WAS THAT AN INSULT

Una Problema

Stop ruining my relationships and life, you NIGGER.

Una Problema

Stop fucking @ that boy from England you Goddamn nigger.

Una Problema

What a wimp, something always comes up, my parents wanna shit about money to me.

Una Problema

I told you to stop STOP IT NIGGER

Una Problema

I don't give a fuck @ your projection of Ellen DeGeneres punishing me you sickos.  What, oh, I'm so in awe, Christina talked to someone actually, some piece of shit.  You're all mean and are hurting me.

Una Problema

My parents show off being mean.  No one can do that to me.

Una Problema

YOU'RE ALL NIGGERS STOP FUCKING WITH ME ALL THE TIME

Una Problema

STOP FUCKING ME NIGGER

Argh

My parents won't stop fucking @ my cousin..I DON'T GIVE A FUCK @ YOU

Una Problema

I don't give a FUCK what I do.  I said what I said, and I don't give a FUCK about it.  So FUCK outta my life, you criminal.

Mebbe

Why not be picky to picky people?

New Video of Me

Dancing a Little

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like omigod

huge vanity #2

Like Teacher Teacher

I found a vanity with pictures on the side.  She has like a wall or tree possibly in some fashion of pictures.  She moved them around.

My Room ) ) )

( ( (  So, I was gonna do a blend .. a Floridian-New Orleanian design, a Southern dream .. So, there was a scene with a peach room I think with scary people (saw a drawing of long, thin people in like black like Picasso) and then I guess the outside was pink with the beach I guess .. then a light neon green in the city .. maybe would make the other side a stage setting with curtains.  Guess I forgot.

German boys..

who want something friendly like a game versus the hyperactive ardent 1s who are mentally sane, as well..

Must Resist

"My mom isn't even Euro PEan!"

Huge Light Green Vanity

save to notepad

My Dad 8 Days Later

Well, do you like it?

Waale (Well!..)

Sorry for anyone I might have gotten upset @ but I am still upset in general

A Little Black Vanity

(listening to Gangnam (sp?) Style)

Stupid

Tim Burton and Ginny just take a basic guide post and do the opposite to make it interesting but they fuck it like they're the Mother of God.

Ew

Ginny you're disgusting and don't get to the point right away.  I will not take the bullshit that I'm not special.

I'm not supposed to have to explain I don't mean anything grotesque as you do.  What's that you makin' fun of me.

End Idea

I have an idea.  I get a part in the Disney parade and then pack my bags for Miami Beach if, well, my mom will be in India..so yea I guess.  Ellen will be there, though.  I'm not networking well.  Ginny didn't e-mail me.

"And More"

As far as Facebook, I just wanted to get it out for you there where everyone can even see, just have to make your page public because there's a Friends limit, maybe like 5000.  You know, it's gonna come up if you don't state something.

Can you stop.

Stop telling us to like cross our eyes to 1 point in the world in the form of a man named Johnny Depp, as well as Tim Burton.

Then, you make fun of how happy we are about you, maybe just because of yo bloody maa maa.  LOL funny way to say it.  I gotta bloody mudder, too.

Age

I don't give a FUCK @ age

WHAT IS YO GODDAMN PROBLEM

I can soak in a meager thing in my northern Pennsylvanian existence.

Don't Need You

Ginny I don't need *** like that.  You keep doing work to hurt people you work with.  Am I lying?  No.  You think some people "didn't do it."  You can't just do whatever you the fuck want because yo mama from Cal i fornia.

Una Pro ble ma

I want to look up see what she's teaching.  Why would she go schizo and care?  I don't give a fuck @ her age.

Something Strange

I didn't star that word.

Oh

So, Ginny is better than everyone else and ****.  What if I wanna go back?  How would that happen?  They didn't tell me that, said I needed a note.  My mom said she got a note not to take classes from her there.  I can believe that, but I want a lawyer to figure it out.

Failure

So, what was I gonna say?  Yea, why this?  You're just being mean because of your strength failure with the N word thing and have racial things, as well, I know I feel I'm not that white, maybe Central Florida isn't, like the rest of Florida.  Can't appraise other places too much, though, glad they come through clean.  You never let us feel and act funny @ touching us.  Why does your classes pick on me and not you?  HUH  HUH  WHATTAYALL WANT

CORRECTION

MY POINT IS YOU HAVE TO TELL ME I DID SOMETHING B4 KICKING ME OUT.

ALSO YOUR CLASSES HAD SHIT KIDS WHO WERE MEAN TO ME ALL THE TIME.

Annoyed

I'm even being made fun of for the voice classes I take from her.  WHAT IS YOU GODDAMN CENTRAL FLORIDA FUCKING PROBLEM.

Nitpicking

Why is Ginny so annoying about the nails thing.  That disciplinarian was nicer the 1st time in ways but really offended me, Valencia, Central Florida!  He was playing like he had square nails and was so fetishy and seemed demanding racially like the Chinese made him clueless.

I did post on her Facebook about nails.  Ginny, you can't have Generation Z.  What do you people think you are!  You're all not good enough..  Yea, I'm mad at all the stupid things in Central Florida, fuckin nigger Central Florida.  Whoops, I forget you must have some kids, like my family.  It's just like my 3rd finger is cut too much it seems but seems better.  I think nail polish is professional and so would be fake nails.  I used to not, but they got ruined, anyway.  The mental hospital, the mental clin'c.

Y

Ginny was so nice at 1st.  I was supposed to tape record the classes.

What's wrong?

Ginny is stuck up.  In class, I was asking for Facebooks or passing out something nice or asking a question, and she seriously was mad, a group of 3 people for an assignment after class for some reason.. that girl from California.  I don't give a fuck @ California.

How can you get seriously mad about that?  Why should I give a fuck @ that teacher's teaching?  What the fuck is she on?  (I don't mean literally, I mean as an idea, what I just said, so hope it wouldn't make you loopy.)

And another thing, why was I like hypnotized to becomea a pile of shit?  Like, sometimes, I forget I have Eggos for breakfast and don't eat breakfast, with fat free milk and chocolate powder.

I also got the message even not in ballet that I have just be like a stone statue with a proper weight.  That's very possible.  I just don't live on a buffet of egg drop soup.

Question

Why can Ellen judge you by the state your ancestors are from?

Bothered, Irritated

Why is she making up weird stuff it seems.. like, she'll like get me outta the classroom classes which were fun for me.  She let them get up and perform, and they started to disclude me more and more.  I like the practice and doing that stuff, like high school.

So

You may be legal, but you will pay it seems.

Question

So, "Ginny," why you have such shitty classes?  I don't want the boring teachers and classes.

Gave It Away

Aw, fooey, Ginny just kicked me outta the class and left Seminole.  I don't know what it is with her nor anybody else who finds her like seductive.  I don't think it's funny that I may not be able to come back.  I feel Ginny is settled at that, is rather overweight, I daresay..  I don't know if it's her fault nor mine.

Anyway, I'm just worried they are mad at something they didn't want to bring up.  I later said to post on my blog if you have a problem, just getting out my feelings.  That might be it, but she never talked to me.  She should know that people talk to me funny and how my life is being experimented on..  I liked the experiment, but I don't like how I've blown a chance at life.  I know sometimes I said nigger but never a threat.  I know I'd get fired at work maybe without warning.  I didn't do this before I went to her class and was just an online buddy.  She didn't readd me on my new Facebook.  She made me antsy when I didn't have an assignment, not stimulated.  (Actually, it happened to be that a student gave me the wrong thing, and in grade school this is how we did this and if someone gave you the wrong assignment you can't be mad.)  The only other thing I can think of is kicking the chair in front of and to the side of me.  They were bothering me.  I used to walk around the classroom and get up and try and find a place because they all reacted like I deserved shit like they were even shit.

Guess what?

Ooh, hey, guess what Ellen DeGeneres.. I forget what I was gonna say.. Maybe, I'll say.. what was it.. I feel it was @ Florida and racism.  I know Orlando is a vicious place, sure good things can happen and people can come together.

Those counselors were lookin' at me acting like there was something I did that did it that they don't wanna talk @.  I fear that I wouldn't had done it, anymore, did not want to.

Excuse

I will get a lawyer to represent me.

In the Weight Training I course, I feel mocked and chased away.  The teacher was being nit-picky to me as a ½ Chinese, boring into she didn't care how perfect, shy, and hardworking I was, but I made a mistake.  I walked around with an attitude, she didn't care.

Also

So, I know I have a Wet 'n Wild pass coming for the year for $55.  My mom is getting me an unlimited Disney pass for unfortunately after the summer is over.

Okay

I feel bigger and older, though.  I should take a class in college?  Which 1?  I don't think Ginny minds me going back but knows maybe a counselor won't care who she is and say for no reason not to go even with the note.  If I did take her class, I might just go to the night Dialects class once a week for almost 3 hours.  I take voice lessons from her once a week for an hour and the practicing is energy and even time consuming.  I never practiced musical theater, just went out and did it with the piano or possibly a karaoke CD, never got to recording it but already got a karaoke machine.

I Know

You think I'm too old to start blogging.  No proof.  No note.  Well, I like it.  I think it's fun.  I just can't seem to get a hold of my personality.  It seems I'm insane.  Maybe it was the food I et.

I Know

I'm not stupid.  I didn't do shit.  You're all bothered by every little mistake I make but say I've been too perfect.  What my school grades???  Oh wow, what happened to, Central Florida.  Then, the N word conspiracy when my life was as an experiment?  What can I do?  No one is nice to me and all adventurey online like before in the same way.

I realized something.

You want me to be perfectly thin and not have fun while you dubbed Caucasians fart around.  Fart yourself down an 'ole.

Apology

I'm very sorry for my behavior all day.  It was wrong of me, and I knew it.  I felt I had no choice because it kept bothering me.  I think I've got the nuts cracked and could give a fuck.

Did you ever think that 1 day..

..you'd have to do something that hurts you in order to ever be a good person again?

"Problem Sol Ved"

Ever talk like that?

Anyway, I told myself just to ignore people, and I'll be fine.  I came into that sewing class all mad.  Only 1 teacher who .. well others .. but she's been there for 14 years, and to me that's a lot..  ehe he he

I Dunno

I just got back from the bathroom, pooed lots of times and then warm tea like a pee pot.

I'm watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," too.

I just had a question.  So, I stay here to be Tinkerbell, you know to try out maybe get to interested at least twice and if not am singing around Orlando for special events where they invite bands, so can get in on lots of that.  However, I wanted to live as close as possible to Miami Beach.  I wanted my own apartment, maybe come back home sometime.  My life here is hectic, and my option is limited.  I was curious to know of a mistaken feeling I had that I'd stay here til I'm worn out then move to Miami, but I'd be much older.  I wanted to stay young in a room, not too young like 19 I guess.., and watch Ellen DeGeneres and live my life, going to the beach, living a life, was gonna do trapeze, then nothing.  I don't know if that's worth it enough, like I probably am too young to leave Mom and Dad..  ,:

Also, remember if I don't wanna take pills and don't keep curfew of 11 PM that my mom won't let me live here.  So, when the need arises.  Not thinking it'will.  Ellen DeGeneres is doing Dory in Finding Dory, a 2nd Finding Nemo.  She is Dory if like me you don't search for those things for some reason at the right time.  Anyway, that movie comes out 2016.

If you didn't catch it, it seems I'm wasting everyone's time.  Really, I was here for my parents and money!  They just wanted a way to get me out.  I may have bad credit, though, meaning harder to get an apartment..

Our relationship is hard, and I'm just getting back at the world, righting my wrongs, getting healthier, excited by Disney want to participate, Tinkerbell in parade option 1, we'll see how it goes.

I got the sad feeling that anyone with a kid already doesn't wanna talk to me.  I don't wanna be a problem, if I go and come back mightn't be fun for them.  I don't have anything to do this summer, got back from a fun, easy sewing class where they tell you what to do, not just the hard-to-understand directions and photos, really, making this tote back which already comes with a ring that we put on.  Mine is for the library, purple butterflies.

So, anyone with a kid shouldn't talk to anyone else.  Why me, though?  That doesn't make sense, at all.  Only really good people can get along with really good people.  I can see how they got to where they were, some of them, I guess.  If you're wondering, my voice teacher doesn't touch me.  In class, she asked if I don't wanna be touched.  I think she would, but she shows me or I hear her hurling sound of punching her gut.  So, I mean, yea, I'm uptight I guess about stuff that's happened to me today, of like having to make myself clear in what I think.  I'm worried @ her safety because I got kicked out after seeing a disciplinarian and didn't see a counselor 1st.  They lied and said I was shouting.  I'm recording my next meetings, but my little Mideast-looking guy don't lemme.

"Situation"

My cousin has a **** mom, but I myself find that adults prefer me lovingly over my equals to them..  :|

Thought of Another Problem

I like to watch Ellen DeGeneres, but she gets to look all elite because she's famous.  I can't have it be that I can't be assertive the way I've come to be.

Una Problema

You pieces of shit I deserve ... You can't say like I'm all of a sudden not good enough for anyone and that I can't know more than 1 person or whatever - my whole life, not have a good variety of relationships or friends.

Una Problema

Will you stop with the obsession over nothing but Ellen DeGeneres?  Why should she give a fuck @ someone of your stature if she doesn't give a fuck @ mine?

Una Problema

Why should I give a fuck @ a piece of shit like you?  Stop ending me off being stimulated by your attempts to draw me in with submission, you pieces of shit.

Cuz I got lots to do

Ellen. Singing.

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How I Feel

Well, I feel nice, again. My dad listened..

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Una Problema

Everyone always acts like my cousin is shit and courteous that I be knowing of that.  Now, when I have a real crisis of my idea of how she treats me, no one cares.  I carefully told my aunt what was on my mind, for some reason.  Then, I proceeded to abstractly describe something in my blog.  I told my dad, texted him at work then told him tonight when he took me to sewing a bag, which isn't finished, yet, though.  I feel that people don't care, anymore.  I honestly don't give a crap of her existence in the family and me not being a part of it.

Hey guys

I feel bad @ what I've been talking about to some extent..I am really fed up about the existence of younger kids.  What they need?

"The Real Deal"

Ellen doesn't like me.  Ellen stop making me feel funny about how much you look up to me.  I mean, you never sort out things for real, just like touch up on hard feelings, kinda dorky and not something I will do, I do the real deal, I talk about -stuff-.

Message

I am not allowed to just shrug off when people know my former relations?

Secret Dream

So, what are Tim and Ellen gonna do about their *** Floridians dream?

I'm not putting up with this

Una Problema

Ellen you can't play like this.  Let me know if you want that post taken down, I just was joking, in case you weren't astute enough to notice because I know betraying friends tell you every blessed word means crap and I crap for them.  Treating me like I ain't white.

Una Problema

ELLEN STOP

Did you drain my brother because I cried for help for him?  What about my dad?  His being mean and scaring you?  That wasn't his fault.. now don't make me mad, I need my family.  I live with hem.

OK, I'm spilling the beans.

Orlando is a whiny brat that goes, "Lakeside, Lakeside."  That's the mental clin'c.

I told my aunt how I felt about my cousin thinking she was whiter but didn't take the time .. rather took a little time to phrase it differently.  I realized lots of new things about her in the past hour or so.  Like, her peeing in the potty being so excited about being the youngest and so wary if a question arises.  Why does she remind me of my teacher Ginny?  Because.. Argh!  I grew to hate the imperfections of my idolts.  I don't give a fuck @ you werewolves born around 1960, 1957-1961!