So, I m**********, again, all alone. The sad thing was I sorta hung onto the idea of watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and felt ooh maybe I don't have to feel it. Well, I'd such a rough week, I gave into this feeling the Ellen DeGeneres was supporting me. Like I wasn't as like strong as her. :( :) There's a way where I feel, not big, though, that submits, I guess now. I dunno, if I were on my own, I may be fine in the world. It's hard to find what to do.