I just got the idea that in the distance someone was killed, not literally but in a sense of feeling yes and there's nothing that person can do to get back. I don't hold a real grudge different from anyone else. See, I told Ginny I was taking new medicine now. I don't think she likes her students doing that. She thinks it affects our voices significantly enough. I did get upset and say on my blog Ginny you got me to call my mom a nigger. She won't let me live here unless I take medicine.