I already know that bad people spread the word and made me permanently infamous and unaccepted racially outta like how "well-to-do" I am.
Also, don't take normal things so hardly, like when I use the word m********* with someone, like I apologized for on the Ellen board .. I meant it so it'd seem more casual but actually more acutely playful.. It's just 1 of those things for people. I'm a bit drained, at the "mo'" moment. I did go back and apologize and said I shouldn't have done it, though.. Still not 100% sure.
Also, I have no identity. I am a good person, but I know people are digging to death to find it was my mom's forcing me to be self-sufficient. I think if you go Europe, you'll find people like that..